Many times I felt like a forgotten person, redundant and lonely, and the only thing that sustained me was the hope that my children would grow up soon so that I could leave without any attachment.
Hello, dear building owner! I'm Day Hyatt Tan from Whale Social Work.
Reading your sharing, I can sense that you are a mother who loves her child deeply. Although I am not sure exactly what you are going through, your words are filled with pain and helplessness, complex and heavy emotions, and multiple physical discomforts. All this must have been very hard on you, and I'm sending you a warm hug first!
I know you're in a chaotic mood right now, so why don't you try some simple ways to relax yourself first? For example, take a few deep breaths and silently tell yourself to "relax"; or go for some exercise, running, jumping rope, let your body move, to help release the suppressed emotions. You can also talk to your family, friends, or online friends to express your unhappiness, which will make you feel much more relaxed. It's okay to cry a little. Tears can help you relieve stress, so don't let negative emotions overwhelm you. If these have little effect, please be sure to seek the help of a professional counselor!
Also, remember that the pain of the past is not all your fault, let alone that you are not good enough. You have tried very hard to be a great mom, and your children are your pillar of strength. If life is so hard, why not try to make some changes? Like going to work, making friends, taking up hobbies, and making yourself feel better. Your child is your strength, when he grows up, do you really want to leave? I believe you have the ability and the courage to come out of this, to combine your child's love with your own inner strength, and to start a new life. Regardless of the past, you deserve to pursue happiness, go for it!
Best wishes (whale social worker ?)
